The Essence of Time

Time really is a funny thing. It can take away so much so quickly yet it can give immeasurable gifts all in one swift movement. It creates limitations yet it provides opportunity. It progresses so incredibly fast some days and there are others where it seems still; immovable. It leaves scars that can never be removed and yet it heals. I will never quite understand it although this year I have known time to be an enemy and a gift given to me together.
I never thought, in a million years, that my 2008 would end up the way it did. I thought my father surely had many many many more years on this earth, but apparently God did not. As painful as the past four and a half months of 2008 have been for me, I am also so thankful for this past year. It is the last year that I got to spend with my father...last moments together, last phone conversations, last "I Love Yous". They will forever be pricless to me. I will also remember how time clicked one day from one second over to the next...how one moment he was here and the next he was gone. How the last four and a half months have seemed to creep by as we try to adjust to this new life and yet it seems just yesterday he left.
The new year has never really been a big deal for me truthfully. To me, it's really just another day. It's a time for reflection on what the previous year held, but I'm not one for resolutions. Really, I'm notorious for making resolutions every day of my life. It is not uncommon for me to walk through the door and rattle off fifty new things I would like to accomplish in the upcoming months. Brady is used to these ramblings now and just shakes his head in agreement. So it is, the only real resolution I have this year is to live with hope. To honor the wonderful, incredible being my father was. To be selfless and giving as he was. To be happy. To remember that although I truly believe I need him here for so many moments going forward, looking back, I was given the gift of time with him and for that I am ever and always grateful...
I wish each and every one of you the happiest 2009. I can think of no better way to start mine than spending it with the man who puts a smile on my face every day...
* Don't mind the picture as it was taken on my cell phone. Blah. No worries though...my new Mac is on its way!! Yeah!! :)